Today marks three years since I’ve had alcohol! Three years ago today, I started Whole 30, and with the program there is no drinking. I was starting Whole 30 to get my body back to homeostasis. I had gotten diagnosed with RA 4 months prior and did not cope well. This was also peak COVID lockdown and I was not coping with that either. I was drinking every night after work and binging on weekends. I was never a black out drunk but after a night of drinking I would sleep til 2pm on weekends I didn’t have my son and at 36 I needed to get my whole ass life together.
I was constantly in pain, always exhausted, I had gained 30lbs and was overall not happy with anything in my life and I felt like my depression worsened. So, what I did was decided to take back what was within my control, which is what I put in my body on a daily basis. I’m thankful every day to Chelsey Pleasant (@chelseypleasant on Instagram) for messaging me and suggesting I try it and to my girls who did it with me! To be honest, I was hesitant to do it because I couldn’t drink, I was like “ummmm I don’t wanna not drink” and I told myself “Just get through the 30 days then you can go back”. But here’s the thing, after the 30 days I was like “I feel fucking amazing, why would I go back?” I never set out to be sober for the rest of my life, maybe I will, maybe I won’t. But what I can tell you is that alcohol did not help my life, sure I miss wine nights or going out for drinks with friends, but I don’t miss how I felt the next day or how my depression was worse unless I was drinking. Alcohol is a depressant, hence why it makes depression worse.
I don’t shame anyone for drinking at all! Do you boo! I just know for me it’s not something I want to bring back or feel the need to have. I can still go out with my friends and have water and still have a great time! This has been a huge accomplishment for me and I’m proud AF of myself!
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